The Time is Now Baby Grasshopper

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I understand this is just the beginning. My restart button has been pushed and I am upgraded with a more balanced and healthier perspective of the world, and how I react to it. I read a great quote out of Rebecca Pacheco’s book “Do Your Om Thing”, “yoga is about encompassing and unifying all the layers of our being, our job as yogi’s is to master our emotions so that they don’t master us, on and off the mat.”

What now baby grasshopper? Jump, but keep learning and be open and receptive to every opportunity that presents itself and wait for it….

HAVE FUN…

So with that said, I am being proactive. Hello 3rd Chakra!

I asked to be put on the sub list at a local gym. YIKES…if not now then when?

Also, I will start teaching two classes a week – one restorative and one advanced- stay tuned for that…

In addition to my branching out, I will continue to offer classes at my home because it is a very special place to me. My living room is where I took the bold move to practice teach to all my wonderful and compassionate friends (Thanks guys! You know who you are!). It is where I continue to gain experience and build confidence in my ability to share this wonderful practice. I want to be certain that I am offering my most authentic self and teach with integrity and mindfulness. I know I will falter and I will freeze and forget, which is a realistic approach at this point in my yoga teaching. I am fine with not being perfect and I am even more fine with being imperfect. I want to establish myself as a teacher with grace and vulnerability. To LAUGH, to CRY and be SILENT when the moment happens, it will be the right thing to do.. I will listen to my heart and feel my breath and enjoy these wonderful opportunities.

When I look in the eye of my students and fellow yogis, I am saying I SEE YOU, without a word. I am so passionate about this thing called YOGA and EVERYTHING it has to offer. My need to share is essential, but more importantly I want these like minded soul searchers to understand that I have A LOT to learn. There is a tremendous amount of information about this ancient philosophy on and off the mat that I am just skimming the surface. That is delightful. I am a sponge soaking it all in.

It helps to be in a yoga community that is amazingly supportive and helpful. I feel extremely honored to be connected to such a wonderful tribe of radiant individuals. It is really life changing. My life (being more mindful), my relationships (who I want and do not want in my life) and my values (trusting in myself, listening to my intuition and following the path of the yoga sutras with more diligence and awareness.) Each and every aspect of my life has changed – for the better. I mean this yogic outlook really very pure and organic. Quite liberating and refreshing to be honest. Being more aware of my thoughts and emotions. I am and will continue learning to eliminate the mind stuff, the worries of past and future, of unrealistic expectations and attachments, silly assumptions and the special sauce we create.

Living with these core concepts of the seven chakras will essentially keep my body in check and balanced… and it flows into my life.

I WILL:

  1. Stay grounded (Root Chakra) I belong here. I AM.
  2. Get creative and feel the intuitive energy (Sacral Chakra) I FEEL.
  3. Be ambitious and bold. Have gumption and be proactive. (Solar Plexus) I DO.
  4. Follow my heart. Listen to it. Ignore fear. (Heart Chakra) I LOVE.
  5. Communicate and use self expression. Be clear, true and authentic. (Throat Chakra) I SPEAK.
  6. Visualize. Focus. Feed my Intuitive wisdom. (Third Eye Chakra) I SEE.
  7. (Crown Chakra) I UNDERSTAND.

I know this is not easy. I am 40 and I am just now learning these new tricks. I wish I had learned these amazing threads of knowledge sooner, but it comes to you when you are ready. I am ready. Maybe these new tricks (old but new to me) will help me with my depression, my self esteem, my self worth…but it is and always will be work in progress. There is no ending. This isn’t something that I can mark off my to do list, better yet realizing it will always be on my to do list.  This new way of living will take focus, discipline and flexibility and I am not talking about the physically, (although there is that too…) I am talking about mentally! One thing that never changes is change, but I will always have my yoga toolbox to guide and help me: Breath, trust and love. All of these are important instruments for my mind, body and spirit. It is all interconnected, and we are all interconnected…woowoo, it is true. 🙂 It is really beautiful to listen to when they are all balanced and in tune with each other.

I can honestly say I breathe with a deeper sense of purpose  and value which breathes life and gratitude into everything I do in my day to day actions. How I clean my house. How I communicate with humans and life.  What I put in my body. How I treat myself and how I treat everything/one around me. Yoga is the connection and I’m ready to dance.

Yoga:

Your body is poetry – Your breath is music – Create magic.

Melissa

What now? I Don’t Know…

This is what I keep asking myself…

What now?

The YTT is coming to an end and I am very emotional about it. Extremely emotional (which is me most days anyway..).

I know that I am placing unnecessary stress and unrealistic expectations on this What Now diagnosis. Yes, it has a name. I have diagnosed myself with the What Nows. What is my plan of action? What do I do with my knowledge and newfound awareness? I often hear people talk about the little voice in their head. You know that “life changing and impactful” inner voice? Sometimes I wonder where did my little voice go?

I do know this voice “I am not ready.” And that is the ego voice. Am I that oblivious and stubborn to not listen to my soft inner voice? To embrace it?

Or… am I just not ready. I don’t know. I know that is ok, however, I want so badly to know the answer to the What Now…Truth is I do hear this inner voice whispering to me, but the EGO voice is still louder.

In the meantime, in my What Now state of paralysis – I will continue the path of practicing yoga on and off the mat, and maybe I will put teaching yoga on a shelf for awhile and not give it so much meaning. I don’t know.

I LOVE to create and the downside to that is I CREATE a lot of unnecessary worries and mind stuff. It is as though I am pushing away what I want most. I make it very hard to follow a passion when I only invite what I did wrong into the conversation and not including what I did right. There is also this block – The idea making a living doing and practicing something I am passionate about and sharing my knowledge to others seems unattainable. In class I was given some feedback (see picture above) on my energy and that is -the white represents uncertainty, not truly living from authenticity. She mentioned I am not giving and receiving, to which I vehemently deny. I do give. I receive. But this is what I missed. She meant I give A LOT, but I am not giving what I want to give… I receive too, but I am not allowing myself to receive what I want. Conflicted.

On my YTT journey, I have learned two words that I LOVE! They are etched in my brain and one day I will etch them into my skin. (Sorry mom!)

One is SANTOSHA (pronounced Santosa). Doesn’t have a nice ring to it? I like to whisper it. Santosha-Santosha-Santosha. It means gratitude, contentment/ being at peace with yourself and now. Wikipedia says it best “Santosha is the habit of being able to accept circumstances one finds self in, without being upset, of accepting oneself, and of equanimity with others who are balancing their own needs as they share what they have. Santosha is also abstaining from taking and consuming something to excess, even if its appearance makes it tempting.”  I have heard it be called EGO’s opposite. I like that.

I also like the word VIVEKA. There is no other way to say it without it sounding razor sharp. Try it! VIVEKA! VIVEKA! VIVEKA! It means wisdom, knowledge and the intellectual ability to discriminate, or discern, between the real and the unreal, true and false, good and evil. Viveka is the ability to obtain sharp perceptions (no pun intended) or to judge well.

Another reason I like these words is because when I practice Santosha and Viveka they will free me of my What Now diagnosis. When? I don’t know. And that is ok.

So What Now? Santosha, Santosha, Viveka Viveka…to be continued.

See you on the flip side.

In the meantime enjoy this wonderful song. I feel it translates to what I’m saying beautifully. https://open.spotify.com/track/70K0ezmzYEZeqoSaZMyP7o

Peace –

M

The Force is Within You

Yoga teacher training and abundant reading on yogic philosophy is really life changing and exhausting. Mentally and physically. Some say this isn’t for everyone, but in my experience it certainly wouldn’t hurt to give it a go. 😉

Through this experience, I am becoming better acquainted with my vulnerabilities and reintroducing me to my more authentic self. Often times (a lot of times!!), I get caught up in self-doubt and ego. This sets me back and it’s easy to fall into this trap. Habits are hard to break. Especially when the ego is involved. And it usually is.

However, since I have started this training I am better able to identify this pattern. I am also aware that I have the power within me to stop the negative judgement I place on myself (we all have this power). This is not an easy process. Growth generally isn’t. It can be painful and messy. But eventually, I am beginning to live from a place of gratitude and empathy. Living from this space is how I find a deeper connection to all life, myself included.

Let me rephrase that: When I live from a place of gratitude and empathy, I will find a deeper connection to myself and therefore to everything and everyone around me.

We are all on this journey.

Recognizing this connection in others is immensely powerful because we are more alike than we are different. Despite all the labels/ pressures we place on each other and ourselves -socioeconomic, education, ethnicity, religion, politics…seriously folks…the list is long!.. When we start to let go of these unnecessary attachments (small steps, mind you) and stop giving them meaning, letting go of comparing ourselves to these labels, (one breath/ one day at a time) do we see that is the ego bully talking.

Say NO to it!

The pathway to self discovery, AKA: our true “effing” amazing self, is taking small steps AWAY from Ego and TOWARD enlightenment. The work is exhausting but not nearly as exhausting as continuing to live with the ego running the show.  

The force is within you.

🕉👊🏼 Boom!!

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